The title is a little odd, but I’m going through a Cold play phase….don’t judge haha. Ok, so as promised…my love life. Well over the summer I quick caring about how I look and I basically quit trying, and ironically enough thats what my love life finally picked up again. I still haven’t seen a penis in over a year but I’m working on it haha. Anyway, I met this skeez at work who I thought was a good guy, but I quickly found out he was no good, so I scared him off by telling him I still have my v-card…I never saw anyone run so fast. haha.
So then two old friends of mine, whom I’ve had a semi romantic past with, both decided to start chasing me down hard core. I have no desire to be with either though because one is kinda a dead beat who lives with his mom and spends all his money on stupid shit, and then the other I would never be with because he has a kid, and I hate the mom. No thanks. I’m all full of drama. Then I met this other guy at work. His friend had stopped at my window to cash out (I work in a casino) and he was behind him. His friend motioned at me apparently and told him I was pretty cute, so he walked up to my window and instantly I knew he was digging me and I was digging him. We talked, we flirted, and he ended up giving me his number. This is honest to goodness the first time this has ever happened to me. I thought that kinda thing only happened in the movies.
Anyway, we’ve been dating (as in going on dates, we aren’t a couple yet) for the past two months. I only see him about once a week because I have a super packed schedule so it’s difficult to balance school, work, and him. I’m kinda conflicted on the matter because I don’t see how we could date when we hardly see each other. I’m just too busy unfortunately to be good at a relationship right now. Plus I’m not exactly sure where it’s heading. I like him, but I don’t know if I like him enough or not. I’m trying not to put too much pressure on it, and to just let whatever happens happen, but it’s really hard not to sometimes. I think once we break that polite kisses stage I’ll know. He’s been a total gentleman so far, which is so different from every other guy I’ve ever been with. They all tried to pull moves on me right away and he hasn’t done that. He’s been taking it very slow…almost too slow haha. Don’t get me wrong, slow and sweet kisses are nice, but I like the heart pounding, brain frying, intense kisses that set your body a flame. I need hands racing, exploring, mouths craving more and more until you feel like you might go mad.
For now I’ll just wait for that moment I guess…
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